I have been having a really hard time lately with everything that is going on. I sprained my ankle and even though it's feeling better, the overcompensation is killing my back.
Going to PT and working full time is so exhausting. I have a butt load of medical bills. I gained back two pounds of the five that I lost. None of my clothes fit and I feel like a fat cow. I know there is no answer, but I keep wondering why this is all happening to me.
I miss going to the gym, dancing, being pain free, going out with friends, having a beer at a sporting event, babysitting my nieces. The list goes on and on.
I so badly want to be that woman who doesn't let things bother her, who bounces back when she is pushed down time and time again. I want to be able to let things roll off my back (no pun intended). I just feel like no matter how hard I try, the more resistance I receive.
I want to be strong and become a role model for young girls who have any disability. I want young girls to see that they can graduate high school, get their drivers license, go to college, date, have a career, be independent, but I don't know how to be that role model when I feel like I am losing everything I have worked for and did nothing to deserve it.
You are not alone. I felt like that after my surgery too. You ARE being a role model. You are showing that even when it gets hard, you keep going.
ReplyDeleteYou are not alone. I felt like that after my surgery too. You ARE being a role model. You are showing that even when it gets hard, you keep going.
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