Pity Party for 1

I had a rough week. My pain has been awful! The change in the weather has done me dirty! I have eaten cereal for dinner this whole week because I am so exhausted! It took all I had just to shower. I don't know if there is a depression component to how I am feeling. I am currently on Paxil and my nerve pain medication was at one time used as a mood booster/anti-depressant.

I think I need to start being nicer to myself. I try to keep as positive as I can, but sometimes it's just difficult and I need to cry. People expect too much out of me. I just want to scream! Oh and why do people say, "oh you look good, I mean, for everything you have been through." WHY?! Can't you leave the ending off! I know I am 30 + lbs overweight. I know I don't kook the same as I used to look, but I am still the same person.  I know I can't expect everyone to understand, but a little filter in what they say, could go a long way!


In better news, my port scar is looking less like a hickey! So there's that!