Sometimes...

Sometimes I feel like giving up. I am in so much pain all the time and nothing is helping. I've tried medications, light exercise, heat and ice. Nothing helps! It's becoming very frustrating.

I remember my doctor at the SB Clinic telling me that my future is questionable and I could end up in a wheelchair permanently, but doctors also told my mom that I would be mentally challenged and never be able to walk. I just don't know how much fight I have left.

I think part of my negative attitude is that I am sick of healthcare professionals half-assing everything! This is my life and if things aren't done properly, I am the one going back under the knife!

I think I am just tired, annoyed, and in a lot of pain! Here's to a better day tomorrow!

Saran Saran (get it? Duran Duran)

you have to make the best out of a situation, make do with what you have, and laugh at yourself! I just did all three!

Since my family is away and my nurse just comes to re-dress my wound, I found a way to shower on my own! How you ask? A shower bench, a hand-held shower head, and saran wrap! yes, saran wrap! I wrapped the saran wrap around my waist so that it covered my wound dressing so it didn't get wet!

I am happy to report Operation Saran wrap Shower was a success!!

The Healing Process...

The healing process is so strange to me! One day I feel great and I'm up and doing things within my restrictions. The next day I can't get out of bed because I feel like I've been hit by a truck. Body, make up your mind! Please and thank you!

I had a minor scare this morning when someone rang the doorbell. I went downstairs carefully or at least I thought so, until I slipped and my foot skipped a step. It scared the crap out of me! Lesson learned! No steps while home alone!

Meanwhile in scar news, my mom has been taking pictures of it as it heals. I don't know if I'm ready to share the pics on the internet yet as I have just decided to look at them myself.

Tuesday is my next appointment and I will learn where I am in the healing process. My goal is to make it back to work on or before March 19. If that is realistic, I am willing to do anything to meet my goal!

Small Steps...

Slow and steady wins the race, right? I have finally taken a small step in recovery from spinal cord surgery. I exchange my non-slip socks to regular socks! Small steps, right?

In other news, I have been watching an embarrassing amount of Maury episodes, along with other trash tv! At least when I return to work, I won't feel like I'm missing anything, or there is always DVR.

I don't think I mentioned how much I hate insurance companies! I know they aren't in business to send you money, but I have so much into my private disability police and they are just taking their time approving it! UGH!

Insurance Company Saga to be continued... 

Finally...SLEEP!!

I have been sleeping better and better with everyday that passes! Thank God! Also, I found out that my insurance is going to cover my home nursing 100%, which is awesome!

In not so great news, I gained a lot of weight. I know that lack of being able to do things contributed to the gain, but I have been eating like crap! This morning I had a bowl of Special K and soy milk! You have to start somewhere, right?

I'm really hoping I can start physical therapy after my next appointment on 2/10. Since I am considered "homebound", there is a possibility that I can receive in home physical therapy, which would be great since I can't drive.

My mom has been amazing through everything. Not many mothers would spent every night by their adult daughter's side to make sure she doesn't do too much. She goes to work super early in the morning and has been working full time and take care of me. I am trying to think of something nice to do for her after all is said and done.